Three Worlds
This morning I woke up after having another odd dream. Not odd like some of the ones that I have been having, but just one that made me think "why on earth am I dreaming about this situation?"
The dream started by my parents and I organizing something. Trying to find a place to have a party, getting everyone's mailing address and all of that stuff. Then it kinda skipped forward. And I was walking into a room with a guy and when we got into the room there were tons of people. Old friends from high school, my SRU track kids, and my new friends from Erie. Everyone was having a good time and talking to eachother. They were all dressed up, sitting around decorated tables. Then it hit me. It was my wedding reception. It's weird, because the whole time I was at school in Slippery Rock I always felt like I was living in 2 worlds, one in Slippery Rock and one in Corry. I never thought that those two worlds would get to cross. Only two people from Corry ever got to meet some of my track kids. And now I'm adding my Erie friends to the mix. I guess I always thought about what it would take to make my worlds collide. I don't know who the guy I was marrying was. I can't remember a face. But when I woke up I was once again confused by my dream.
Maybe it was because last night when I was at the neighbors we were all talking about a couple that got married kinda young. Two of the girls were saying that they had been talking to their boyfriends about marriage. Or maybe it's because last night I saw the episode of Sex and the City where Aiden proposes to Carrie. (and now am watching the episode where they are going to break off the engagement) Either way, thinking about marriage freaks me out. I know that I blogged about this before and it came from a slightly different perspective. But honestly, how am I ever going to know that one guy is the one? The one that I am suppose to spend the rest of my life with. The one that should be the father of my children? I've had different guys in my life. Ones that I've thought about a future with, but that was in high school, first loves, and guys I knew the timing was wrong with. That's another thing I've been thinking about. I've had a few guys in my life that I had a connection with, but just knew (even before the relationship actually started) that the timing was off. But just because the timing was wrong when I was still in college, does that mean that timing will always be wrong?
I rearranged my room last night. I got bored with how it was. I do that a lot, and not just with my room. I get bored with relationships when they become a routine. I always hated that in high school. The whole "I'll meet you outside of your class after block 1, we'll walk to my locker, then go to your block 2..." ugh, just thinking about it makes me cringe.
Well, the one love of my life just woke up and brought her tail and four legs over to me, so I think I'm gonna go cuddle with Ryme for a little bit before packing up and probably heading to my parents so that I can do my taxes.
The dream started by my parents and I organizing something. Trying to find a place to have a party, getting everyone's mailing address and all of that stuff. Then it kinda skipped forward. And I was walking into a room with a guy and when we got into the room there were tons of people. Old friends from high school, my SRU track kids, and my new friends from Erie. Everyone was having a good time and talking to eachother. They were all dressed up, sitting around decorated tables. Then it hit me. It was my wedding reception. It's weird, because the whole time I was at school in Slippery Rock I always felt like I was living in 2 worlds, one in Slippery Rock and one in Corry. I never thought that those two worlds would get to cross. Only two people from Corry ever got to meet some of my track kids. And now I'm adding my Erie friends to the mix. I guess I always thought about what it would take to make my worlds collide. I don't know who the guy I was marrying was. I can't remember a face. But when I woke up I was once again confused by my dream.
Maybe it was because last night when I was at the neighbors we were all talking about a couple that got married kinda young. Two of the girls were saying that they had been talking to their boyfriends about marriage. Or maybe it's because last night I saw the episode of Sex and the City where Aiden proposes to Carrie. (and now am watching the episode where they are going to break off the engagement) Either way, thinking about marriage freaks me out. I know that I blogged about this before and it came from a slightly different perspective. But honestly, how am I ever going to know that one guy is the one? The one that I am suppose to spend the rest of my life with. The one that should be the father of my children? I've had different guys in my life. Ones that I've thought about a future with, but that was in high school, first loves, and guys I knew the timing was wrong with. That's another thing I've been thinking about. I've had a few guys in my life that I had a connection with, but just knew (even before the relationship actually started) that the timing was off. But just because the timing was wrong when I was still in college, does that mean that timing will always be wrong?
I rearranged my room last night. I got bored with how it was. I do that a lot, and not just with my room. I get bored with relationships when they become a routine. I always hated that in high school. The whole "I'll meet you outside of your class after block 1, we'll walk to my locker, then go to your block 2..." ugh, just thinking about it makes me cringe.
Well, the one love of my life just woke up and brought her tail and four legs over to me, so I think I'm gonna go cuddle with Ryme for a little bit before packing up and probably heading to my parents so that I can do my taxes.
posted by Heather @ 2/10/2007 11:52:00 AM
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